I’ve been struggling to come up with something to write lately. For one thing, I’m coming down off the high of my school acceptance. I’m very impatient, and once I’ve made the decision to do something, I want to move forward. But my program doesn’t start until June, so I have some waiting to do. We’ve also been extremely busy for the last few weeks. We got to travel to Pittsburgh for my brother-in-law’s wedding, and although it was fun, traveling with young children is always exhausting. But the biggest situation of late is that Jonathan has been working almost nonstop.
For those of you who don’t know, he’s an emergency physician; in addition to his clinical responsibilities, he has an administrative position in his department. The hospital where he works recently built a new patient tower, and the ED is preparing to move into its new space on Saturday. (I’ve been able to tour the new ED, and it’s an enormous, impressive space!) The amount of work being done to prepare for this move is overwhelming to me. I guess I had never really thought about the reality of moving departments which need to be operational 24-7. Not only that, but when you’re as busy as their ER is, there is very little room for error once things do go live. So of course the staff have been working incredibly hard to try to make sure things will go as smoothly as possible. I’m sure it’s still going to be a difficult task, and I don’t envy them the crazy weekend ahead.
Although I’m really proud of Jon and happy to support him, I will confess that I get a little jealous sometimes. Of course, there are days when I’m satisfied to be where I am, but I also remember a time when I got to experience the rush of working on a big project, helping to direct a team, and feeling that sense of satisfaction that comes from this kind of hard work and a job well done. Sure, in my own way I’m contributing by making it possible for him to be there, but it’s still not as exciting to be at home (as much as I love my kids). But I guess when it comes down to it, it’s really not about me. I need to find the joy and contentment in my present circumstances, as ordinary as they seem in comparison.